exhausted.

i am so tired. 做人真的不容易。

we all try and find excuses way too often. the number one excuse is 'I'm busy.' followed by 'I have no time.' followed by 'I am tired'. nothing but excuses. the only fact is everyone is busy, nobody has time, everyone is tired, period.

i don't want to make excuses. but that only made me feel so bottled up. i wish everything could be effortless, even if i spent days losing sleep over it. i try so hard to meet others' expectations of me, and so i always fall short of my own. i want to be nice, so that i get treated the same way in return. but that just makes me never satisfied with how i behave and how i 'should be feeling'. being selfless, is just not me. having principles should not be a self-imposed strait jacket. i need to strike an equilibrium somewhere.

been obsessed with comparison, passing phases, coinciding phases this week. work load is high, time is little. precious, little, time.