sunday afternoon

i think im better off by myself, because im a selfish person. i don't see myself giving things up for someone, or sharing everything with someone, not even friends. i judge too quickly, and don't forgive easily. i want the good things for myself, and i don't wish happiness for others. i don't want to give in to people, i hate complicated matters, and i don't want to have to choose between friends and bf. i don't like sticky couples. i am not interested in others, i just want to talk about me, myself and I. i want people to do what i want and what i like. in a bad situation, i choose to walk away rather than speak up and talk it out. there's so much i can do for myself, my friends and my family. but im not doing them.

this week, i started having men thoughts. i found girls so noisy. why must they be so picky about food? just eat la! will die meh? why can't they just stop talking also? shut up also cannot. why are they always gossipy? must know every little thing about others meh? girls are just crazy people to handle sometimes.

and its tough handling expectations. expectations from your boss, from your noisy friends, from your parents, from your siblings...it's like having those bubble thoughts with different characters in them yakking away, and im grabbing my hair out of desperation with red veins popping out from my eyes.