T.I.R.E.D.
i am so tired.
since 3 weeks ago my days have been jam packed with meetings, lectures, work, revision. and i say, packed. a typical day goes like this: lecture from 930-1130, lunch, meeting 1230-130, another meeting 130-230, doing my own work 230-530, travelling home, having dinner, the occasional tuition from 730-930, travelling home, bathe, sit around a bit... and its 12, i have another lecture at 930 the next day. time to sleep.
every day the same thing... just different meetings for different modules, doing different work, sometimes revision, sometimes projects, seldom applying for jobs. go to school, hear everyone going for interviews, and i have barely applied for any. even those i applied to, don't get back to me. it is demoralising. homework is dead boring, i can't last a day of it. yet i don't feel like doing anything else on the computer (including applying for jobs), i just my eyes to take a break from the screen.
how am i to find time for that, when everytime i get some free time, there is something that i havent done and needs to be done?
and when i do get time, i don't get to spend it with the people whom i want to spend it with, because we have different schedules even though we are in the same school. i still have to pester my friends to go out with me, even if just for a meal, while nobody asks me out.
much as i wanted so badly to enjoy my last sem, i haven't been doing so... much as i wanted to take everything easy, people around me dont allow me to do so... much as i want to do things at my own pace, i will fall behind everyone else... much as i want to go out with friends, i have unfinished work to do...
the awkwardness of being a year 4 student with more modules than everyone else, more projects than any other year, more alone than before. i find myself going home alone, going around school alone... own world much?
since 3 weeks ago my days have been jam packed with meetings, lectures, work, revision. and i say, packed. a typical day goes like this: lecture from 930-1130, lunch, meeting 1230-130, another meeting 130-230, doing my own work 230-530, travelling home, having dinner, the occasional tuition from 730-930, travelling home, bathe, sit around a bit... and its 12, i have another lecture at 930 the next day. time to sleep.
every day the same thing... just different meetings for different modules, doing different work, sometimes revision, sometimes projects, seldom applying for jobs. go to school, hear everyone going for interviews, and i have barely applied for any. even those i applied to, don't get back to me. it is demoralising. homework is dead boring, i can't last a day of it. yet i don't feel like doing anything else on the computer (including applying for jobs), i just my eyes to take a break from the screen.
how am i to find time for that, when everytime i get some free time, there is something that i havent done and needs to be done?
and when i do get time, i don't get to spend it with the people whom i want to spend it with, because we have different schedules even though we are in the same school. i still have to pester my friends to go out with me, even if just for a meal, while nobody asks me out.
much as i wanted so badly to enjoy my last sem, i haven't been doing so... much as i wanted to take everything easy, people around me dont allow me to do so... much as i want to do things at my own pace, i will fall behind everyone else... much as i want to go out with friends, i have unfinished work to do...
the awkwardness of being a year 4 student with more modules than everyone else, more projects than any other year, more alone than before. i find myself going home alone, going around school alone... own world much?
posted by yanjun @ 11:58 PM
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