perspective

right now, i am so tired i can fall asleep immediately upon hitting the pillow.

but thoughts are keeping me awake, at least for another 10 minutes.

i'll be in china in another 2 more weeks. just, two, weeks. sometimes i'll be really excited about what i'm gonna experience there. i tell myself its only gonna be 6 months, and i'll be back before anyone realised i was gone. yet as the day draws closer, i don't feel like going anymore. to leave my comfort zone... to be away from everyone else... mum, dad, sisters, friends...the 1st month in foreign land would feel like forever. how's everything's gonna turn out to be?

but as zheeloong says, 顺其自然. all i want is, to come out of it a better person.

i'm missing home already.