you know

she's right. he or she, whoever that was. it was probably what i've tried to tell a friend again and again, but never really got in, or perhaps i'm really bad at doing this. finally, something that made good sense from somebody else. hope that friend understands now. it really isn't easy trying to convince somebody to believe in what you believe in. especially when your friend is already self-absorbed in his or her own thinking. and i realise your style of writing can actually distinguish you from other people!

i think i really can't write well. i would have the confidence to write well in primary school though. i was really good at writing then. i can't convey what i'm trying to say with an intended impact. maybe i should stop blogging since i can't express myself. because i can't express the correct degree of happiness i'm feeling, nor sadness, seriousness... i'm probably not as sad as you think i am. it was the wrong method of composition! somehow, events turn out more serious and sad than they are under my pen. gosh. how do i change this!!

you know, i think it's gotta do with conversing in cyberspace for too long. 'hahaha'/'lol' mean happy, short and curt sentences mean anger or sadness, 'haix' means many things. lol. daaaamn. MY ENGLIISHHHH!! by 30 years old i think i'd be better off not talking. talking about expression, yesterday really gave me confidence. perhaps you could shorten the process to lessen somebody else's pain. hahhaha. 百闻不如一见！当事人的自欺欺人。

which brings me to the 10 commandments. i haven't really drafted them out, but i will do them up properly one day.