the fact

i realise, i probably have no friends at all.

over time, other groups have taken priority over this group. wasn't so to me, but it will start to, now. choosing between two groups, one would choose the other.

im really suspecting, whether all i feel for this group, is just me. all this 'friendship' doesn't seem that real/solid anymore. i suppose, we were never really a group that clicked. people change, and its evident. i've changed too, i know.

in the past, we were more convicted to make time for one another. now, not anymore. it's 'ok, outing failed.' there's no 'i want to make up for it with another outing.' nobody initiates one, nobody does anything about it.

i can dare say i've tried organising outings, never works out. because everyone is busy, because i want everyone to be there for outings, because there is preference for other company. i'm not exactly free too you know, trying to do this is cz i want to meet up again.

if it shall be this way, it will be this way. the bond has been diminishing, i can't be the only one trying to save it. there's no more care.

to you, thank you for making me feel appreciated for what i tried to do.