a straight line

arrrrrhhh the days drag on... lost track of time. i don't know what im waiting for. the exams? the end of exams? the holidays? the end of holidays? the start of a new sem?

what's more in my life? other than school. other than giving tuition. other than facing my computer. other than the tutorials waiting to be cleared and notes waiting to be caught up with. having a permanent headache, a cloudy mind and failing eyesight. no time for more. maybe im falling sick.

i have dance now. singing. that's happiness there... 4h of happiness a week.

once again i ask myself, what is too much to ask for? 'too much', it's so hard to measure. i find myself really hard to satisfy. the wrong level of expectations for the wrong things.

today i just keep listening to christina aguilera. she is such a GREAT singer!!!! her voice is so powerful~ she has some really meaningful songs.



The Voice Within


Young girl don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall, ooh
Young girl it's alright
Your tears will dry, you'll soon be free to fly, ooh

When you're safe inside your room you tend to dream
Of a place where nothing's harder than it seems
No one ever wants to bother to explain
Of the heartache life can bring and what it means

When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend just
Trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
You'll learn to begin to
Trust the voice within, ohh

Young girl don't hide
You'll never change if you just run away, ooh ohh
Young girl just hold tight
Soon you're gonna see your brighter day, ohh

Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed
It's so hard to stand your ground when you're so afraid
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold
When you look outside, look inside to your soul

When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend just
Trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
You'll learn to begin to
Trust the voice within

Ohh yeah, ooh, yeah ohh

Life is a journey
It can take you anywhere you choose to go
As long as you're learning
You'll find all you'll ever need to know
(Be strong)
You'll break it
(Hold on)
You'll make it
(Be strong)
Just don't forsake it because
No one can tell you what you can't do
No one can stop you
You know that I'm talking to you

When there's no one else
Look inside yourself
And like your oldest friend just
Trust the voice within
Then you'll find the strength
That will guide your way
You'll learn to begin to
Trust the voice within

Young girl don't cry
I'll be right here when your world starts to fall




Beautiful


Don't look at me

Everyday is so wonderful
Then suddenly
It's hard to breathe
Now and then I get insecure
From all the pain
I'm so ashamed

I am beautiful
No matter what they say
Words can't bring me down
I am beautiful
In every single way
Yes words can't bring me down
Ohh no
So don't you bring me down today

To all your friends you're delirious
You're so consumed
In all your doom, ooh
Trying hard to fill the emptiness
The pieces gone
Left the puzzle undone
Ain't that the way it is

'Cause you are beautiful
No matter what they say
Words can't bring you down
Ohh no
'Cause you are beautiful
In every single way
Yes words can't bring you down
Ohh no
So don't you bring me down today

No matter what we do
(No matter what we do)
No matter what we say
(No matter what we say)
We're the song inside the tune
(Yeah, oh yeah)
Full of beautiful mistakes

And everywhere we go
(And everywhere we go)
The sun will always shine
(The sun will always, always, shine)
And tomorrow we might awake
On the other side

'Cause we are beautiful
No matter what they say
Yes words won't bring us down
Ohh no
We are beautiful
In every single way
Yes words can't bring us down
Ohh no
So don't you bring me down today

Ooh, ohh
Don't you bring me down today
Don't you bring me down, ooh
Today





Hurt



Seems like it was yesterday
When I saw your face
You told me how proud you were
But I walked away
If only I knew
What I know today (Ooh, ooh)

I would hold you in my arms
I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you’ve done
Forgive all your mistakes
There’s nothing
I wouldn’t do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you
But I know you won’t be there

(Ooh) I’m sorry for
Blaming you
For everything
I just couldn’t do
And I’ve hurt myself
By hurting you

Some days I feel broke inside
But I won’t admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide
Cause it’s you I miss
And it’s so hard to say goodbye
When it comes to this

Would you tell me I was wrong
Would you help me understand
Are you lookin’ down upon me
Are you proud of who I am
There’s nothing I wouldn’t do
To have just one more chance
To look into your eyes
And see you looking back

(Ooh) I’m sorry for
Blaming you
For everything
I just couldn’t do
And I’ve hurt myself (ooh)

If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I’ve missed you since you’ve been away

Ooh) It’s dangerous
It’s so out of line
To try and turn back time

I’m sorry for
Blaming you
For everything
I just couldn’t do
And I’ve hurt myself
By hurting you





Fighter


After all you put me through
You'd think I'd despise you
But in the end, I wanna thank you
'Cause you made me that much stronger

Well I, thought I knew you
Thinking, that you were true
I guess I, I couldn't trust
Called your bluff, time is up
'Cause I've had enough
You were, there by my side
Always, down for the ride
But your, joy ride just came down in flames
'Cause your greed sold me out in shame, mmhmm

After all of the stealing and cheating
You probably think that I hold resentment for you
But, uh uh, oh no, you're wrong
'Cause if it wasn't for all that you tried to do
I wouldn't know, just how capable
I am to pull through
So I wanna say thank you
'Cause it

Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

Oh, oh, oh, oh
Ooh, yeah, ohh

Never, saw it coming
All of, your backstabbing
Just so, you could cash in
On a good thing before I'd realize your game
I heard, you're going round
Playing, the victim now
But don't, even begin
Feeling I'm the one to blame
'Cause you dug your own grave

After all of the fights and the lies
'Cause you're wanting to haunt me
But that won't work anymore
No more, uh uh, it's over
'Cause if it wasn't for all of your torture
I wouldn't know how, to be this way now
And never back down
So I wanna say thank you
'Cause it

Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

How could this man I thought I knew
Turn out to be unjust, so cruel
Could only see the good in you
Pretended not to see the truth
You tried to hide your lies
Disguise yourself
Through living in denial
But in the end you'll see
You, won't, stop, me

I am a fighter and I
(I'm a fighter)
I ain't gon' stop
(I ain't gon' stop)
There is no turning back
I've had enough, yeah...

Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
(Oh, ooh yeah, ooh yeah)
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter

Thought I would forget (thought I)
I remember (ohh)
'Cause I remember (ohh)
I remember

Thought I would forget (ooh)
I remember (ohh)
'Cause I remember (ohh)
I remember

Makes me that much stronger
Makes me work a little bit harder
It makes me that much wiser
So thanks for making me a fighter
Made me learn a little bit faster
Made my skin a little bit thicker
Makes me that much smarter
So thanks for making me a fighter




I Turn To You


When I'm lost
In the rain In your eyes
I know I'll find
the light to light my way

When I'm scared, losing ground
When my world
is goin crazy
You can turn it all around

And when I'm down
You're there pushin me to the top
You're always there
givin me all you've got

For a shield from the storm
For a friend for a love
to keep me safe and warm
I Turn To You
For the strength to be strong
For the will to carry on
For every thing you do
for everything that's true
I Turn to You

When I lose the will to win
I just reach for you
and I can reach the sky again
I can do anything
cause your love is so amazing
Cause your love inspires me
And when I need a friend
You're always on my side
Giving me faith
Taking me through the night

For the arms to be my shelter
through all the rain
For a truth that will never change
For someone to lean on
For a heart I can
rely on through anything
For a the one
who I can run to
I turn to you
To keep me safe and warm
I turn to you

For the strength
For the will to carry on
For everything you do
for everything thats true
I Turn To You