pushing daisies

all my life i've done SO many embarrassing things. i cringe when i think of them. man. oh god why did i ever do some of those things? i hope no one saw. i hope no one remembers. i hope no one found out. i feel silly thinking about them. damnnnn.

last night i went out alone...original plan: je library. in the end: IMM. i spent 50 bucks just like that. so impulsive man. so in order to redeem myself, today i went out again. original plan: bb library. in the end: i did go, but i didnt bring my IC to borrow books. and i thought i found a perfect book to read. argh. wanted to go out desperately... and my friend didnt seem to be free.

it's one of those times when u feel friendless. when u feel so empty. but thinking abt it, it is true. i only have a few friends.