leap year

it was the bi-biannual day ytd. met up with a best friend to catch up with each other and watched the movie Leap Years. Leap Years is nice... go and watch it~ just a little slow in the middle.

today i spent so much. i calculated my earnings and spendings for this month. i did save a bit, but i don't feel like i have much spending power. sigh. i know i spent a bomb on dbsk stuff, but i don't feel like i've wasted my money, because i don't regret buying. and because i know i spent a lot on that, i cut down on the rest...and it makes me sian cz i don't feel like im any different from the schooling days. even when im earning, i can't spend freely. it sucks.

sigh. new month. really feels like shit when i think about my finances. im on my own.

and there isn't even anyone online for me to talk to now. it sucks.

i don't feel like i've talked to anyone for ages anyway.

didn't realise how long it was until i found i had to much to say on the phone the other day. or how much i really wanted to meet up with some people. and how irritated i was knowing some have no time for me, for us. or dont bother to want to meet up. sometimes i wonder if i'm the irritating one to them, the one who keeps asking whether he/she wants to go out when i know pretty well they are like so busy with other things and other friends.

no time.

i feel kinda empty.

like, friendless.

maybe i neglect you all sometimes. maybe it's karma.'

and i dunno wtf is wrong with my blog template.