what a roller coaster ride it's been.

two weeks down, two weeks left. i'm at the lowest point of this circular motion. highest tension, but i need to gather up speed to reach the top once again, otherwise i'll just be thrown off tangentially.

a month before this, everything was all over the place. up and down, in and out. i lost it, i found it, i lost it again and regained it once more. man i wish i never have to go through that again. how can anyone bear with crying one day and laughing the next day and crying again the day after that. i must say i must have seemed hysterical 2 weeks before exams. alone, i couldn't laugh. with others, i forgot about everything and have fun with them. now that im sort of on track, i don't want to be thrown off again.