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everytime after reading people's blogs..i feel like crying. no in fact im crying again. i don't want to lose hope, but i'm scared. people from other schools are getting their As and Bs already. no, how about somewhere closer like class. they did it, what about me? i just told my mum my results, only because she asked. and i didnt feel any better after reading blogs. every day has to be productive, but every day, i can only do that much. the more i study, the more i don't know. i have consultations, but that isn't even enough. everyone else is closer to their dreams than i am. i don't exactly know where i stand, but looking back on the results analysis, i'm probably in the last 30% or so. people are telling me on their blogs they're somewhere around 50% or higher. this isn't it, i have to do better. i'm pushing myself now, and hopefully by midweek, i'm gonna get into full gear. too late or not, i'm telling you, yes too late. i don't have confidence. am i going to get further, or nearer? if i'm writing a story, will this be a story with a good ending...