day 1

end of phy paper 3. no one said it was hard, it seemed ok to everyone. i thought it was do-able, but yes, i could have studied harder and i would have done better, for sure. i think i will make lots of careless mistakes... from vic's blog, simon tan said can get 50%. i doubt myself. so for a paper that most people can get 50%, i'll be getting hopefully over 40%.

'hopefully?' that isn't what im supposed to be saying. yes, i didn't work hard enough for this. no use getting scared or making a big deal out of it. i deserve it.

i wish sometimes people wouldn't express their negativity so openly and i wish i wouldn't be affected by it.
don't tell me "i didn't..." or "i couldn't..."
because you could have worked hard for it.
it was a matter of choice.
don't make it sound like it just happened. for no reason.
there is a reason it happened.
i think i made a wrong choice too.
don't be influenced yanjun. =/
work for yourself.
the old line: "who's sitting for the paper? you or me?"
how much time have u wasted today?
it doesn't come without a price.

i wish i could settle down and focus myself instead of telling others to do so. i wish my insomnia could go away. really hate it when i lie on my bed and brain keeps working. for the past week i've been waking up to study jz because i couldn't get to sleep. like ytd, i really slept at 2am or so.

i want to be wide awake while doing my papers so i won't make careless mistakes like today. get that cloud out of my mind. prelims.

and another thing from vic's blog:
"If you focus on whats left behind, you will never focus on what lies ahead."
-quote from ratatouille

exactly what xiuhui told me on the bus home today.